The first time you think you can be something, you start wondering what you have to do to get there. Then all of a sudden, reality hits and you think, “What was I thinking? I could never do that.” And then you move on with your day.
The down side of that instant of thinking you “cant” is you meet someone down the road who actually did, and is successful and happy doing it. Then you wonder why you never stepped forward. Why didn’t you just dive in? What stopped you? Then it hits you. You were terrified.
Terrified of what someone will think. You were terrified your friends, mom, dad, sibling, partner, kids, etc would think you’re crazy and would start talking you out of it. Guess what? You’re probably right. They probably would. But you know what else you were scared of? FAILING.
So, you want to know the secret of someone who masters their craft and someone who is just starting out? It’s not necessarily talent, money, looks, or even education. The reality is, the Master has FAILED more times than the beginner has even attempted.
Well, there it is. All the advice thrown out are really my insecurities.
Now how do I go forward? Let’s start with Karen… the infamous Karen. Who is she? Karen is the voice inside my head that tells me its okay to eat another cookie, to take a day off. Really Karen? Why do I listen to you. I usually regret when I do, but I do it again and again.
One of the hardest things I ever had to do is learn how to push myself, by myself. I grew up playing soccer. I had my TEAM to push me. They were my motivation and the reason I worked as hard as I did. I didn’t want to let them down. But now, its just me. I have great friends and co workers, but between physical distance, work, kids, YOU NAME IT, I really have to depend on myself.
This is where a running coach I have NEVER met came into play. Her name, Robin Arzon. She has a book on running, I should probably read it, buy it and support her.
Ms. Arzon is a coach for Peloton. I cant afford the equipment from the company, but I figured I would try the app and see what it could do for me. That’s when I found Robin.
She encouraged her audience small increases were still that, increases. She also speaks about doing what you NEED to do vs what you WANT to do. Do you NEED to walk or do you just want to? She said in one of her runs that she doesn’t “speak excuses, so level up.” Damn right, Robin.
She is exceptional. Of course, I don’t know her, but I am willing to bet that she has insecurities. I bet she has had an inner voice telling her she couldn’t do something SO many times. The difference is, she didn’t give it any mind. That’s the trick y’all. YOUR MIND. That is what Robin taught me.
If I ever get to go to New York, I would love to take a class of hers live, in studio. She says level up before you’re ready. You ready? Good, do it anyway.
That brings me to my next challenge, fueling the fire. My fuel? Some pre-workout, water, sometimes an English muffin, and all the CRAP I ate yesterday, and the day before, and the day before that. I know what it feels like to run on a clean and well-fed body. It feels amazing. So why do I still eat the crap anyway?
My addiction is sugar. I shake it, then always come back. Specifically, it is chocolate. Anything chocolate and I literally cannot say no. Those toddler challenges I’ve been seeing around social media would not work well with me… the chocolate would be gone when my mom came back.
So… that’s. Where I am. I’m in the beginning. I’m not ashamed to be here. One bite at a time… I can do this, we can do this.
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